I would like to say that I am enjoying this class. This past weeks assignment has really allowed me take a deeper look into the way that I look at myself and the way that other girls perceive themselves. I really found it disturbing because I know that I have relatively low self-esteem and I have a skewed self perception. Right now it is at its all time low because over the summer I injured my foot. Now for several people this would not be a big deal, but for some who runs 5-7 miles a day and lifts weights daily or does some type of muscle building activity for an hour everyday it is life altering. This was detrimental to my self confidence and sent me spiraling into a mild depression, this was all because I could not work out. Some reason I just stopped caring and I gained approximately 20-25lb in a few months, now none of my clothes fit me and I am too stubborn to buy new ones. This has been very hard for me to accept infact I refuse to accept it. This could be because before I was injured was the first time that I felt good about my self on the inside and on the outside. I have never been that confortable in my own skin before, I have struggled with low self esteem and an eating disorder for a good portion of my life. Knowing that I cant run, jump, play basketball, or nearly any sport for that matter has completely crushed my morality.
To be continued……
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